October 26, 2011

Whenever I am afraid, I will trust in You. (Psalm 56:3 NKJV)

So tomorrow afternoon is Samantha's next MRI and Neurosurgery visit. Just over three weeks ago was her last MRI which showed that her cyst had grown. This will be her 5th MRI since her last surgery in August. A good friend of mine told me to try to enjoy the time with Samantha without worrying. I have really tried to do this but as the days grow closer to the scan it has gotten harder. When I measured her head tonight I could see a difference from the last time about a week ago. Overall she is doing well, it just makes me sick to my stomach to think about her having to go through surgery once again. The cyst is large enough that something will have to be done with it at some point and I have a feeling that her doctor will tell us tomorrow that it will be soon. Please know that these thoughts are not from a lack of trust that God can fix it. I believe that God has already worked miracles in Samantha, but I also know that God places us in situations for His purpose. "To everything there is a season, A time for every purpose under heaven: (Ecclesiastes 3:1 NKJV)" Even though I am worried about what tomorrow holds, I hold tight to God's love and the fact that his plan is PERFECT! I think so often these days about just how blessed we are. If Sam would have been born before the 50's she would be fighting for her life right now because shunts were designed in the 50's. So we are so blessed to be living in a time with modern technology. We are also blessed to live in an area with an amazing pediatric neurosurgeon less than an hour away. We also have an amazing group of people who we are blessed to have take care of Sam at the hospital. God has also blessed us with such amazing friends and family! Your support and prayers have gotten us through some really hard times. One year ago tomorrow was when my gallbladder was taken out and my health started improving. It is also the start of us finding out about the situation with Samantha. It is amazing to think where we have come in a year. I will post tomorrow night when we find out more about the cyst from the scans. Here is some videos of Sam from tonight. She was very please with herself because she learned to make bubbles. She also started saying dada last week! Even though it is a huge milestone, it is a sore subject at our house because a certain someone likes to rub it in!! Thanks for any prayers you can send our way tomorrow!!!