March 30- Almost 37 Weeks

Words can simply not express the emotions I feel tonight. The last few days have been emotionally hard. I feel like I am a soldier about to go off to war. I could get to where I am going and they could sign a peace agreement or we could go straight into battle. It seems so strange that hours from now we will start to have some of our answers. Today was our pre-op appointment and it was a lot different than we expected. Glad to have that out of the way. They told us that we might not get to see her but for a few minutes tomorrow before she is transfered to Baptist. I pray that is not the case. A friend asked me what was worring me the most and I guess it would be that we hope and pray that she is stable when they get her out. One doctor told us that sometimes Dandy Walker kids have trouble breathing at delivery and that has always stayed with me. I just need her to get here and to hold her. Then I feel like I can start dealing with the next step. Please pray for Travis. He feels a very heavy load on him right now. I have wished so many times that his dad would have been here for him to talk to. Bless his heart he is surrounded by women. I know that Sam Bode is looking down at him and would be so proud of the man he has become. I can't thank all of you enough for the HUGE blessing you have been and continue to be on our family. I thought yesterday what a huge blessing it has been to have such wonderful friends as role models for my daughter. Gwen has witnessed over and over how to be an awesome friend by what the friends you have all been to Travis and I. I got on facebook tonight and saw a photo of my Dobson family and just cried... speechless. Employees from SCS have donated 59 days to me so I could be out the rest of the year. I can't even begin to say thank you for that amazing gift. The sad part is because of privacy issues I can't know who donated days but if you know someone who did or you were one of them.... I can't thank you enough for your gift. I have one small request and that is for prayers for tomorrow for our family. I have often related my life these past few months to Job because I know that God's word gives us examples of how we should handle different situations. Job suffered so much more than I could ever think of and so I feel unworthy even comparing my situation to his. In the beginning of Job, God and Satan are talking and God allows SATAN to put the trials on Job for God's glory. When Job lost everything... he praised God. The thing that I have been thinking is that Satan must be really upset that so many of God's people are lifting up this little baby in prayer. It is so overwhelming to me how people all over the world are in prayer for our baby. Even though our GOD ALWAYS WINS... I feel like Satan has been putting up a good fight. I just ask you to pray to our powerful God to surround our family tomorrow so that Satan doesn't even stand a chance to come close to us in any way. Beth Moore once said to pray for the bolds of your gate. That a city long ago was only as strong as the wall and the gate that surrounded it. But the key was the bolts that were made to open and close the city gate. Something so small could make such a difference. Please pray for the bolts of our gate. I also praise God for all He has given us. We so do not deserve all the blessings that have come our way throught the first part of Sam's journey but we are so thankful for His blessings. I hope that you know that you are a part of His blessings on our family. Our C-Section is at 11:40 tomorrow. Thank you for your prayers and support. I will try to be updating the blog because this is the best way for us to keep you informed of our Samantha's Journey.... Love, The Bode Family